staying calm...

i tink sun tzu's art of war prob has such things...

enemy dun move, i dun move...

i tink i'm feeling btr now...needed to vent and cool off to be able to tink properly...

wat i heard is from a 3rd party...whose words i discount abit sometimes...not cuz i dun trust her but more cuz is more emotional person thus words r more emotionally charged...

the incident got to me mostly cuz i had a bad week! was so damn busy...then hear such things, cfm will burst! maybe if it was someone else, oredi confronted the person directly... haha...

i am really a much more calm person than that... someone used the word 'zen' on me... i tink i can be that way... and for me, as long as my conscience is clear i tink i can survive... so in a way, i am gg to ignore watever is being said for the moment...but will monitor the situation...

1 thing abt me...i tink my tolerance level is high...haha...i will most prob be the last one standing in most tough situations...esp if it's more logical, rational stuff..

thanks to all those who listened to me over the past 1 day plus!!! i'm seldom so affected... it's cuz i felt i tried hard to accommodate the person, taking care not to overload her, even taking some of those load on myself sometimes so as to make her feel btr about her situation...altho i dun expect her to be grateful..i prob din expect ungratefulness... so was a shock... but of cuz everyone's built differently...and went thru different experiences... i can handle that... no problem... time will tell the truth in all situations... juz let time do its work ;)

Staying Positive...

Work dun get me down... people do. This happens to those who prefer working in a harmonious environment.

I got to know today that someone has been spreading that I am a controlling person. And that she is very unhappy working in the same department as me. Oh, she also thinks that she is the MOST busy person in the department.

The person who told me added though, that anyone who really knows her, would discount whatever she says as they should know the kind of person she is. She can't work and she complains about everything and anything.

Well..I can only say I am trying my best to work with her. If what I am doing is still not enough, I will probably just leave it. UNLESS I really want to confront the problem head-on which I must consider if it is worth it.

On another note, how unhappy must a person be before he/she considers to leave a company?

I'm wondering because - the person in question has not been happy working in another department, and was transferred into mine and now got unhappy again...

If it was me, i would have left earier. It was not a totally peaceful transfer.

I dunno..but I do have to find a way to manage this before it gets to me more and more.

Maturity or 看破？

I feel my view about life has changed recently. Is it just a passing thingy? Or I am finally growing up?

I have been reading...still need practice in many things i wan to be able to do...like having more patience...being less forceful about some stuffs.. giving people the space to be themselves.

So far, the results have been very encouraging... those times that I relax and let time do its work, I had gotten good responses...

maybe that's the way life works... relax...and things will just turn out well...rush things and opps....too bad!

it seems a chapter in my life is closing soon... I read somewhere that my life has very distinct chapters...and i feel it's true...things r very different in different parts of my life... wonder wat the next chapter might be then?

Another piece..

I would do some acknowledgement at some point about the book I am reading now...here's another piece to share...

Forgiveness has nothing to do with reconciliation or even holding the perpetrator harmless. Forgiveness is the process of giving up resentment or anger towards another person (or even yourself).

There is a Buddhist story about a monk who was robbed at gunpoint at a bus station. Immediately, he felt great rage at the perpetrator. These emotions continued to wash over him, and by the time he got home he was crying. When the monk told his student this story, the student said, "After all you've been thru, why are u crying?" The monk replied, "I realised that if I had been raised by that man's family and if I'd had his experiences, I would have been the man with the gun."

I am reading a book and would like the share the following -

If u feel anxiety, just feel it. If ur mind has taken u to a dark place, just stay there.

There is only 1 thing to do when u feel like u are in hell. Find the nearest busstop and sit down. When we wait for a bus, we know it's coming but we don't know when. It doesn't matter if it's hot or cold. whether it's raining or whether you are in a terrible hurry, it comes when it comes.

learning to live with anxiety...

when u r no longer fighting it...it will stop controlling u...

some profound words...food for tots...

Nice Marine Tank!

hmm...can't resist...this is so beautiful! Got the pic of the marine tank that my fren is keeping. I can't believe my eyes! It's just so beautiful.. i tot it's even more beautiful than the sea....?

I am blessed!!!! SO blessed!!!

Seeing this at work -

"To love someone deeply gives you strength. Being loved by someone deeply gives you courage." -- Lao Tzu

I'm a believer...

Thank You...

Thank you for teaching me how to save, manage my finances and increase my awareness about money matters. so that I can realise that I can do it afterall, when I see the goal clearly.

Thank you for teaching me the stuff about IT just so that I can sometimes show off to less savvy friends. *haha*

Thank you for all the nice things you have done for me and the not-so-nice things that had happened.

Thank you for all the experiences we have been through that strengthened us and made us grow.

Thank you for sharing some wonderful moments and some horrible ones through the short 3 years.

Most of all, thank you for giving me 3 years of your life, showering me with the kind of love that you know of.

Thank you.

one of those days in a month that i get totally emotional...

when tots turn negative...

when tears flow... (not every month tho)

when i get totally insecure...

someone reminded me that he sings well too....that is true...but then this is not character-related ma....

I know from the way I 'complained' about him...it seems i totally hate him and tink he has no strengths at all...

May I ask anyone who has been upset before....? When u r upset wif a person and complaining to another person, wld u be speaking gd things or bad about the former? of cuz bad things rite? and it's not cuz the person doesn't hv any strengths at all rite? it's juz cuz u r upset wif him abt the bad things...

anyway..so as not to seem SO bias against him, i wld acknowledge some of his strengths too, to balance out...

he is patient - he 'waited' for me for a few years...in a way...i nvr questioned him...but i tink no one suitable came along as well..

he is thrifty - he does not buy clothes for himself. seldom spend on anything much. only indulgance is Techie stuff (altho such things usually quite ex hor. haha)

he is gd wif money mgmt - sets budget for himself, disciplined in building his savings.

he is very tolerant of me - believe it or not, we hvn't argued many times over the 3 yrs plus we were together. most of the time, is i angry...seldom argue.

he is humourous - funny in his own way...some sounds he make r funny...quite one of a kind... this ability i dun hv..

he is easy-going - dun hv a huge temper...

he thinks he is gd looking - OPPS...this is not exactly a strength..hahahahaha..

all i can tink of at the moment....