Increasing frequency....

The frequency is increasing....i reckon time is almost up....

wat tok abt flats and stuff....bullshit....

Today is a special day...

ok la...not like EXTREMELY special...i juz looked at the date and remembered that it's the bday of the first guy i liked.. tt was in sec skool...

haha...i liked him cuz he seemed so funny... v humourous... but he's the loud loud kind, v different fr me. I was a v shy and quiet girl in the lower sec... I was a SHY girl but daring too! haha... liked him since sec 1...and actually wrote a card to tell him tt i like him in sec 2.. madness! haha.. sent it to his house mailbox... P/S: Got other guys like me one ok! I con't to like him...but of cuz din reject other guys la...at tt time, it's mostly frens only ma, unless they really open mouth and say like...die die oso must ti gong ya? :þ *Shit! I getting so hokkien...must be influence from some lemony fruit... hehe...*

Cuz i am quite a cute girl...he told me tt he liked me too...i mean..how serious can love be in sec skool? nothing came out of this though...

in fact i nvr got attached during sec skool days at all...always nearly but nvr...haha...tink no guys got enuff guts to be my bf...i was TOO HOT! :þ haha...no la..tink i was too shy and subtle...ppl get the feeling tt i am not v int...

Back to that guy...anywayz...he changed after we got to JC...tink he got abit weird...not sure y... we sort of lost touch after JC...

Until after i got into UNI...we sort of bumped into each other...i even forgot how... and we went out, juz to catch up... he actually asked if i wanna be his gf until he left for germany for studies... YES, he was tt mad...and weird! wat makes him tink i wld agree...haha... :þ

i oso got to know that he was having probs at home...parents not getting along wif each other.. bro is not straight... stuff like tt... maybe that was y he changed during JC times... he might hv needed support but cldn't find any true frens... sigh...

Now we have lost touch again...i wsh him well and Happy Birthday...wherever he is now! :)

It's Official! It's over.... :(

No...not my relationship...! I'm still attached...

It's the busy period at my workplace...

I guess most people should be very happy if their busy period is over...because that meant they have a time to take a breather, have a break...

But not for me, I mean...for my job, the off-peak is really off-peak...the work can be reduced to very little, things that can be done in under 1 hour per day... OMG! so wat am i supposed to do for the rest of the day?

Well, it depends...sometimes there are more things to handle, i will be kept busy the whole day, but most of the time, i am able to do my own stuff during off-peak...like reading books/mags...studying my japanese...and of course updating this blog...

I'm not one who can idle very long....okok...i know i have been in this job for like 3 years...but i always TRY to find things to do even if it's off-peak ok! it's sometimes hard though...especially now that I have lost the heart in working here...

Nowadays...I don't even have the motivation to do the things i am REQUIRED to do...keep making mistakes... Cuz it's all very routine work, always doing the same thing...I am not a robot...keep doing the same thing, i will get sian ma...how to maintain? Finding new things to do is difficult...wat's thr to do? Unless there's a major renovation project, which I probably wouldn't be very interested in anywayz, since i wouldn't be involved in the planning of it... my boss doesn't give me that kind of responsibilities...she will go for meetings...and come back, as blur as before she went... cuz sometimes she doesn't understand wat ppl are saying but dun ask... how idiotic... so my office always un get all the information. sigh..

maybe my boss plays a part in my losing of interest in this job... although she has changed alot over the 3 years i have been here...I still dun tink she's my ideal boss. When I first started this job...she was still ok, teaching me things...and stuff... After a while, i'm not sure y...she suddenly changed her attitude towards me...dislike me alot...even extended my probation, citing reasons which din really make sense to me...but i dislike being treated like tt, tt's y i stayed on and proved her wrong... she was particularly nasty near the end of my probation and during the extension of my probation... making my life here HELL... i endured all the nonsense... I improved everything I did in my work, such that there was no excuses reasons she could use to ask me to leave...And I was confirmed. Haha...i dunno if she was happy or mad...! :þ

I tink i remember that she was still rather nasty towards me after I was confirmed...sometimes losing her temper for no apparent reason...and tt includes shouting at me..i mean...i am only ur subordinate leh, not ur kid or wat leh. workplace harmony is impt, everything shld tok properly ma... shout for wat? As time goes by, i got used to her weird mood swings...and her aloofness which i suspect is to protect herself, cuz she dun understand wat others are toking abt anywayz...even if she understands, she act blur... In fact, i tink her best ability is acting blur. Anywayz, as i was saying, i got used to her moods...and now even if she was unhappy, screaming at me, I still stay calm lor. cuz no point getting angry at her, tok to her, she also dun understand. There was once, i tink i wrote it before..She dun understand something I did, and was questioning me..I tried to explain with a smiling face...y I did wat did...AND she said i was arguing wif her... I mean hey everyone can have their own views rite? this is the way i did it, if u tink it's not acceptable, we can discuss it. Even if u r boss, doesn't mean tt everything u say is RITE and like it's a rule meh? anywayz, now i dun even bother to explain to her, really, seriously no pt...if a person not open towards other ppl's views or opinions...dun even bother to open her eyes up since she choose to live wif her eyes closed.. it's a personal choice ma... Can't be i FORCE her eyes open for her wor...

BUt she changed alot recently...nowadays she's unhappy wif my clerk most of the time... it's either i have improved so much tt she can't find fault wif me...or maybe she gave up.... or the most probable reason shld be...i wld prob be promoted soon, if any one in her position leaves...so she's trying not to bully me now...in case i raise higher than her in future...perhaps...perhaps...haha... cuz she's sort of one of the under-performer in her rank... cuz she too bo chup...cannot be bothered.

tt's one of the reason, cuz i feel i don't learn much under her...shld try workig else whr and see if i can find a better boss... :)

been looking out for jobs for a while...but no news yet....now contemplating to sign up for teaching career...many frens said they nvr heard i was int... and some said...it's suicide...well...I dunno, tt's y i am still considering....

i guess to go into teaching...the passion factor is the MOST IMPT! with passion, i guess u can go anywhr...and fly high... :)

Dreaming of a better world...

Without anger...Without sorrow...Without misery...Without MEN!

Idiots~~~

2 Moons for earth on 27th August...

Always been fastinated by the sky...stars...planets...etc.. saw the transit of venus when it happened...haha...persuaded colleagues to go during lunchtime since it happened during the day. haha..

anywayz...thr's another of those once-in-a-lifetime celestial event again...

Taken from an email i received...

"Planet Mars will be the brightest in the night sky starting August. It will look as large as the full moon to the naked eye. This will cultimate on Aug. 27 when Mars comes within 34.65M miles of earth.

Be sure to watch the sky on Aug. 27 12:30 am. It will look like the earth has 2 moons.

The next time Mars may come this close is in 2287. Share this with ur friends as NO ONE ALIVE TODAY will ever see it again...^_^"

U will sure see me looking at the sky this coming sat...searching for the 2nd moon...wonder wat's the best location...somewhr open and high up perhaps.. :)

NOTE: Heard on radio that this is a hoax...so sad...but i'll still peer at the sky today...juz in case the 2nd moon juz pop up....haha... :þ

Nice Weekend...

hey...juz back from a nice enjoyable weekend trip with my JC gang and other halves. Went Malacca...oredi been thr twice but was v long ago...it seemed the best plc to go, since we only wanted a 2D1N trip...Anywayz..i saw more of Malacca in the past 2 days...than from the past 2 trips. It was interesting walking along the rows of old shophouses in the town of malacca...

Some of these shophouses were transformed into interesting shops selling all kinds of things... there were mini boutiques, shops selling accessories, house decor stores...furniture shops... quite a gd mix... some of these shops look sophisticated too... there was this shop which did not even look like a home decor shop at first glance...we tot it was like a person's house...but the doors were wide open, so we ventured in...haha...the things sold thr were exclusive, i guess, thus looks expensive...and unique...there was a dining table set, made from solid wood...like whole blocks of wood...tt's like so heavy ya?

oso had so much yummy food...first was chicken rice balls...nice...but cfm v OILY, else how u tink the rice sticks together? Then went to have some famous chendol...not too bad. Tink malacca is famous for their chendol cuz many stores have tt. next was this cafe whr the movie xia ri mo mo cha was filmed. the movie was mostly shot in redang island but there was one scene whr the main leads argued, tt was done in malacca... :) ok...for sat dinner, we had peranakan food. yummy too. sun breakfast, some of us ate at the hotel. a few went to hv this famous bak gu teh...which they told me was gd. i gave it a miss cuz had breakfast at hotel lor.

shopping not much.. there was only 1 shopping thr. mahkota parade. not very interesting...but one of our frens got mad at the factory outlet store thr and bought like 9 shirts/polo tees. haha.. i nvr tot guys can shop like tt...haha..

overall, i wld say tt the trip was v v nice...looking forward for the next trip oredi... :þ

To be a good frontliner in the service line...

Hey...need your opinions...

What does it take to good in the service line? eg. sales asst? Wait Staff? customer service? or even air stewardess...?

I am curious if I really have what it takes to be at the frontline...

Other than having a great smile and a positive attitude, what else is integral?

I am so MAD!

Yes. i am very mad.

Although not the first time i got very mad at my bf, it's the first time he raised his voice at me. And it's so obvious tt he's the one at fault this time.

It's got to do with his past rs. He and his ex had a bank acct, cuz they were together for several yrs, of cuz i wasn't surprised...and i wasn't even jealous or watever... to access this acct, they had internet banking, of cuz. and those who uses internet banking, knows thr's a userid and pin thingy.

i first found out abt this when i helped him access his acct...the userid was smtg connected to his past rs, i can't even rem wat it was exactly. And as a v normal girl, of cuz i wasn't happy abt it. can u imagine? he broke up like 2 yrs before he got attached wif me, and he was still using the userid they shared. if u r a girl, u will know the kind of feeling i had... if u r a guy, u will prob be a pighead and dun tink thr's anything wrong.

the first time i knew abt it, i told him tt i dun tink i like the idea of him using smtg which reminds him of his past rs as the userid. i din kick a big fuss at tt time cuz i guess he din see the need to change it since he wasn't even attached...and it's prob more convenient to con't using it...changing it involves making a trip down to the bank branch...

BUT now tt he does hv a new gf, i reminded him tt it's not healthy for me. Cuz everytime he access tt acct, he wld be reminded of tt past rs. tt's wat i feel. i mean i dun go keeping those things tt ex bfs gave me all ard me...and get reminded of them all the time. and bank userid is smtg u prob use V V often... and it's such an impt thing, like bank acct. And it's not smtg like a gift...it's smtg tt can be changed wif juz a little bt of effort.

That was at least a few months ago... at tt time, he told me he wld change it.

Today, cuz i was supposed to transfer some money to him when i was over at his plc....the issue juz happened to pop into my mind... he told me he hvn't changed it yet. Tell me, how did u expect me to react? And when i asked him y he hvnt done it...he told me he was too lazy to go change it. I was definitely unhappy. Who wldn't?

even though he told me he wld change it in the coming wk, i wasn't satisfied. on wat basis am i supposed to believe him? he had told me once tt he wld change it but after a couple of months, he still hvn't. after tt he lost his temper, FBB when obviously he is in the wrong. in the car, he even raised his voice at me. cuz i wldn't give up. I cannot accept it tt he's juz too lazy to go change the userid. wat kind of reason was tt.

it was something impt to me...as in it will affect me adversely tt smtg he uses regularly reminds him of his past rs.

his ex gf still toks to him frequently. how did i know tt? cuz everytime he went online, the first person to msn him is her. how shld a girl react? Someone wanna tell me? i am not really jealous...i juz dun like the idea. I dun tink they will ever get back together again either. and i dun mind tt they chat occasionally, like he doesn't mind me chatting occasionally wif my ex if they happen to be online. but at least i tell him abt times tt i do. he din. and i dun like the way i find out abt things like tt. a few days ago, he juz told me tt his ex had asked him to go watch 'the maid' wif him...and it was like a random chat between him and her. now i dunno if i can believe tt. cuz today i oredi seen her initiated msn chats wif him twice, juz in a day! wif some cute cute winks... i dun even do tt when i tok to my ex. i tok to them like normal frens.

back to the impt thing issue...it's not the first time tt things i deemed impt r overlooked by him. i tend to forget past unhappiness...so i dun rem wat those things were. but i know this is not the first time.

I juz wld like to know how the bf wld feel if all the exact same things were done to him...when they were things tt mattered to him. tink abt it. how wld u feel?

Note to the bf: u will not expect anything fr me for the next couple of days cuz i dun tink i can be bothered to tok to someone who overlooks wat i tink is impt. if u cannot be bothered, y shld i?

Lifeless Week...

Had been so busy for the past wk...and last wk as well... have deadline to meet..tt's y. Deadline is supposed to be next week, but since my boss normally wants to take a look before i submit, I aimed to finish today. And i did it.

Though i did it, it wasn't easy...I had to go without any entertainment at work..haha..no time to tok on msn... :'( tt's y the whole time, i felt lifeless...all work and no play makes qin a dull girl! :(

Thankfully it's over now. haha...

But i developed some pain in my neck...there seemed to be some tension in one of the nerve or watever it's called...and it's giving me a headache... Dunno if it's stress-related or weather-related... started on Wed...got worse on Thu...Today, daytime felt ok, now seems like getting worse again...wat's wrong wif me...? maybe it's cuz i stopped my exercise classes...lack of exercise is badfor health too, isn't it? Then again, will the effects of stopping get to me so fast?? my body likes to be tortured is it? tt's y once i stop the exercises...it finds other ways to torture itself... *frown* sigh...watever the cause, i am going to see doc if it still doesn't recover tml... had procastinated cuz I had to be responsble and finish my stuff at work!

Din have many activities over the wk...except Mon nite went to watch fireworks at Marina South... Fireworks is one of my fav things.. :) Used to go watch fireworks at Marina Sq every CNY...cuz it's one of the longest ones in Singapore...ard 12 mins... haha... and the spot i always go to, very nice... will feel like the fireworks is juz above my head...v close oso! :þ Juz tt i need to go to the place around 10pm, even though the fireworks show is at 12mn...haha... Still i feel the waiting is well worth once the show starts and the pretty colours start exploding in the sky in front of me!!! Then i will stare intensely for the whole duration...haha..even though i'm always thr wif a companion...no one can take my attention away fr the fireworks! ;)

I tink i have become a very lazy girl...nowadays dun really like to go out oso...dunno y... tink need to get myself moving again....cuz i feel myself getting fat!!! OH NO!! i dun wan!!! tummy coming out...arms flabby... even my bf agrees!!! Need to start exercising again, once my headache clears... sigh...

Going Malacca next wkend...hopefully the haze clears by then...else oso dunno how... The PSI in m'sia, 2 states, went above 500 yest...tt's scary! in s'pore, the highest the PSI went was maybe 150? and many ppl were oredi sick... I'm one of those who will be affected cuz i got very sensitive throat and nose...and everytime thr's slight haze, i'm almost the first to know... throat will be very dry when i wake up...then i know thr's smtg wrong wif the air.. machiam PSI meter! :þ haha

this Malacca trip, i'm gg wif my JC gang...total 8 of us. tink going to be fun, though it's juz 2D1N...ad tried to plan for a 3D2N in bangkok..but din work out cuz everyone was SO busy with work and cldn't really commit to any dates...u know la...air travel need to book in advance then will be cheap one...and if too ex, i oso dun wan to go leh... haha bkk went so many times liao...cheap cheap then go ma.. anyway, back to malacca...one of us had been thr one or twice, so she's prob gg to be more familiar with the plc...and she's supposed to bring us to al the nice food and plcs to visit...haha... really looking forward to it...

oh ya...next wk, thr's a silkair stewardess interview...i'm still considering whether i shld go apply..cuz i feel i rather old oredi liao...though i always wanted to be stewardess, so can visit different cties...see more things...i had preferred SIA..haha...silkair maybe still not too bad oso la...but its only nearby cties..haha..still tinking...anyone also interested, we go together?? email or msn me la... :)

haven't sent any resumes for awhile...cuz too lazy...and quite drained after work...no energy liao... until today i finally can manage to do things other than work... ok, yest was jap class, so not counted.

ya, toking abt jap class...still considering if i shld go for JLPT 4...for my level (E2), actually i can't go for it yet..as in, i wldn't be able to pass...according to my teacher la...haha... cuz for my school, we need to finish Elementary 1 and 2 & Intermediate 1 before we can take the most basc paper of JLPT... then again the fees for taking the exam is only 20 bucks leh...haha...tink i shld go hor! haha juz treat it as an experience lor... Juz one thing, the exams venue very far away...heard it's at Changi thr!!! Wah biang ar....taihen tooi ne.. *means very far in jap* tink i shld try...dunno if i still can get the registration papers from skool...

see if i hv time to write again later since gg to meet bf for dinner now... head still 隐隐作痛...sigh...so poor thing... :'(