Will U Marry Me? *Blush*

Yesterday I had a proposal....NO LAH! haha..at least not yet...haha...

But I thought it might just be the season for proposals wor...cuz i heard two yesterday... one was my JC fren' sista (2 yrs younger than me but bf my age) and the other, my Pri Skool fren's gd fren ( my age)...distant fren... but i still do know her la... more recently for my Pri Skool fren's wedding, we were jie meis together... ;)

Anywayz, it's not everyday that u hear of such news, u know...? i mean one in a day is oredi quite special...moreover i heard two...quite amazing la...i tot...and maybe i will rub off some of that luck....? haha...no la...kidding...

seriously i am not even sure if i am ready for such commitments...though i do feel i wan to settle down wif my bf... *blush* but such things cannot be rushed one... me and him only together for like 8 mths...dun even know if that's enuff time to know each other well...but ok la, i feel we do understand each other to a certain extent...considering we were frens for ard 2 yrs before getting together....

got to know him thru the internet..quite funny... was fate which brought us together i feel... we got to know each other thru this dating website called Singaporecupid.com. SO PAISEH! haha...initially, when we were frens, we refused to tell ppl how we got to know each other! haha...cuz i felt it was bit like...*HUH? SO Desperate until need to go know ppl at dating website ar?* haha..but i dunno, i dun regret it though. When i registered wif the site, it was more for fun and getting to know more frens perhaps...not v serious lor... i guess tt's the kind of attitude to hv when joining any similar activities since having high expectations will probably make u miss out some nice people who might not make a very exceptionally good first impression. Always start wif a mentality to make frens first...let things go fr thr... okok...before this becomes an article for SDU, let's go back to my topic... :þ

Anywayz..when we first met, he was oredi attracted to me...me oso abit la...we got quite close...haha...BUT i was really unstable at tt time due to a particularly bad break up, my mood swings were horrible...he cldn't take it and decided not to pursue a rs wif me... i was oso sort of getting bored at tt time i tink...so i guess it juz wasn't the rite time yet... :) but we remained frens since we had common interests and enjoyed similar activities...

During the time when we were frens, i got attached to another guy...i'm not even sure if he was disappointed...but he did know abt it... in spite of tt, we still remained as frens... juz dun meet as often cuz the bf at tt time, hated him... dunno y...haha...but tt rs was not really blissful...laden wif arguments...he was one of the few frens whom i confided in...he was concerned in the beginning...then he got sian of listening when i kept going on and on about the same problems..but cld nvr find solutions... :þ well...tt was the major problem of tt rs, i guess...alot of unsolved problems...

then it ended...but i oso din get particularly close to him after the breakup.. cuz after the previous 2 rs which ended badly...i was emotionally and mentally exhausted...had wanted a long rest... though there were some suitors around at tt time, i felt i needed THE break... and if they do like me enuff, they will wait for me to be truly ready...this is wat i firmly believe... so i juz dated ard, have frenly outings..chiong and hv fun... of cuz also go out wif current bf la... not really c\sure if we met v often though... when i let loose, i seldom rem things... haha...juz live life carefreely! :þ

But i rem one thing which was quite funny... he was my PHBF, short for public holiday boy friend...before he became my permanent bf.. WHY? cuz we always go out on public holidays...and oh...maybe it wld be better for him to tell...cuz my memory seem to be getting worse...haha.. he shld rem the reason! :)

anywayz...now i'm happy...though i look forward to THE QN and THE ROCK! not really in a hurry la... can't be oso...cuz my bf always take his own sweet time one...cannot be hurried kind... i gan jiong oso no use... he got his plans and so i juz got to trust him and man man dan lor... :þ

My Perfect Man...

He is not a perfect man… Colour coordination is sometimes a problem. The plastic bag of a Polo Tee I bought for him is still on the floor, the exact spot where he first left, though the contents are missing. A few reminders are needed before things are finally done. But he’s perfect for me… Supportive and understanding. Takes all sort of nonsense from me without complaints! Not the first guy I met online, but one who became a true friend and now, my boyfriend. In the 2 years we had been friends, he saw me through 2 nasty break ups, stood by me despite weird mood swings and drunken tantrums. A silent pillar of strength in times of sorrow and someone who can make me laugh all the time. Perfect description of him in his own words: “Sibeh Steady Ar!”

True anot?

Once i start, i can't stop...

Well...anyway i am free...and...it's a hot afternoon....and....ok...enuff of excuses..i juz FELT like doing it! canz...??

Your Hidden Talent

You are both very knowledgeable and creative. You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential. Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them. As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Your Hidden Talent

You are a great communicator. You have a real way with words. You're never at a loss to explain what you mean or how you feel. People find it easy to empathize with you, no matter what your situation. When you're up, you make everyone happy. But when you're down, everyone suffers.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

ok. the above test ask ppl to choose a pic, i cldn't decide between 2 pics...so i got like 2 description la....wonder which is the real me? Ans...none of the above? :P haha

Here's another one...i find this flattering... :)

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog. You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head. Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent. You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

OK....i shld stop now...

I am a copycat...haha...

Lemon juz posted this on her site..so i be cat la...oso go do...tink done this test before...but this one steady leh, still give u code to post on blog one...nowadays hor, everything SO convenient...

maybe lemon oso can find lover in a can or smtg...then if angry, juz flush man down the sink and open another can? fantastic idea!! :)

ok...back to the thingy...this is wat holds the key to my heart wor....

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Unhappinesses in a single day...

First was a student... u wld hv tot tt undergrads r old enuff to articulate their tots adequately so that ppl wld understand them... but no... apparently some expect u to read their tots...or even feel their discomfort...and do smtg abt it...

scenerio...roommate's chair was broken, both came down wif chair..i checked record, found tt only 1 chair is to be replaced cuz it's broken and cannot be repaired. so i asked the guy wif the good chair, y is he down wif the good chair. he say tt his chair is different from his roommates...then i say it's ok, it's also issued by the office, juz tt diff batch of chairs r diff in design...then he con't to say tt the chair is diff from the ones in other rooms, his frens' rooms...then i bit pissed liao. he deaf or smtg? so i ask him whether he wan to believe his frens..or the Office? I juz told him tt the chair is issued by the hall office lor. then he keep quiet. so i changed the chair for his roommate... everything settled.

not really. after ard 2 hrs, my boss came to ask me abt exchange of chairs. whether anyone came juz now...i told her wat happened lor. then she told me thr's someone who emailed to say tt his fren came to office to exchange chair cuz he feels the chair is uncomfortable and was given an unreasonable reason. WTH! which mouth of his say the word uncomfortable in the office? ask him come office, tell me la...bullshit! i hear liao damn pissed. u come and tell me, i try to help u... u dun tell me the truth, expect me to know? u tink i god ar? somemore twist facts... buay tahan... HE shld come to the office...tell me wat's the BLOODY unreasonable reason he got when he was told he cannot change his chair due to 'uncomfort'!!!

And somemore, tt wasn't the only unhappy thing tt happened.... :(

Juz now, took cab to bf's plc fr orchard. the cab driver really one kind... when we approach the cab, he still bo hil like tt...then we open the door...he look at his watch...it was ard 11.30. tink he dun really feel like driving us one. cuz he waiting for midnite. this cab is silver cab. the license plate shld be SHB 8427 M if i am not wrong. But i might be, cuz dun rem v clearly liao. but i rem the driver's name...Jang Seng Chai... one kind attitude... then after we got in, told him destination....he start driving, dunno y turn one circle ard the bldg one..then me and bf tot maybe the road is like tt, no direct road out to main road, so need to turn one round...this one nm...

dunno whether he knws how to drive leh...keep accelerating, then redue speed, then accelerate....dunno wat he trying to do...make me vomit is it? then he take long way somemore... go expressway...then we tot nm la, maybe faster.... but he again try weird things, go expressway but drive on the left most lane...WAT THE...!!! u r taxi leh...not truck...not container.... then he still doing the accelerate and reduce speed thingy...till my bf buay tahan, ask him if he is ok... then he immediately give cock reason..saying tt juz now he drove another customer, he miss one exit, then the customer complain him. then say at nite, the signs v difficult to see, sometimes drive too fast, can't see. HELLO...u taxi driver rite? cannot see sign, how to drive taxi? then oso...u drive fast, then drive fast la..need to accelerate and stop, accelerate and stop one meh? WHR got ppl drive like tt one? 3rd, even if drive fast, oso can see signs ma...unless u drive like 140? then too fast, prob can't see signs liao lor..ya?

then my bf notice, he v weird...when we exit fr expressway, he seem to pick up more speed. my bf say the driver always like to step v hard on accelerator when he's on 1st and 2nd gear...then 3rd gear, he will lose the hold on accelerator.... dunno if he brought his brains out...or he trying to be funny.... cuz he like racing car whenever he starts the car gg at traffic lights..then will slow down when he gets further away fr the traffic lights... really weird and one kind cab driver...

i was tinking, he drove slowly cuz he wanted to make us pay midnite charge... cuz i nvr seen any cab driver, or any driver for tt matter, drive so slow on the expressway....esp not cab drivers lor. they r known to hell drivers ma. all speed like mad one wat.... but in the end, we still din pay midnite.....he prob si damn pissed! orbi...

tml will be a better day...since i'm on leave...

now slpg liao...will write tml if free.

Was the previous week shorter? Or.....???

Ya...it was a busy week, tt's y it seemed short, i guess...haven't written anything for more than a week.

Last week, my boss went home for holidays...she's from Hong Kong... But onctrary to popular belief, that when the bosses are not around, the employees can all relac...cuz bo jeng hu...cats not ard, mice can come out pray pray.... No wor! when my boss not ard, cuz i 2nd in command...i hv to run the office leh. these r the times tt i get more busy...

But still ok la...now is not busy period...so still can handle...this time only 1 wk ma. the last time she went for operation, was on MC for 3 wks....i also can handle, no problems... haha...i guess tt's y i find my job more and more unchallenging....cuz can handle oredi... :þ

i am still looking for a new job...yes...still... either i am so lousy or my frens aren't doing a good job in looking out for job lobangs for me... haha...i tink it's the latter wor! no frens help leh....haha...i oso trying la. been sending out resumes also... must be some probs wif my resume/cover ltr...also...got to review...else y so long got no response one? *sob sob*

This morning, NQ was telling me that over the wkend, she read something which reminded her tt she has the choice of starting each day on a happy or unhappy note...and though it wasn't the first time she read this message, it was the first time, she felt she got to do it... cuz she also had been rather depressed/frustrated with her job situation...mostly to do wif boss' crankiness... I know i had been rather difficult to get along wif oso, partly cuz of work frustrations and partly due to a drop in self-confidence fr lack of responses to my job applications... :'( and the worst hit is my bf...poor man... but i know he's been trying his best to keep me happy... got to thank him here! *muakz* haha...

Anywayz, back to that quote abt starting each day with a happy mood...i juz find it difficult la.... sigh...cuz i got to drag my feet to work every morning... then do lotsa meaningless work...sigh... JUZ KILL ME! JUZ KILL ME!! :(

Nothing i can do now, except to be more diligent in revamping my resume/cover ltr and sending out job applications.... I must do it...no matter wat...

And when i do, i might be able to take a break before starting the next job....nuaz for a wk or 2.... :)

JIA YOU!