In the mood to blog...

I tink I am the kind of person who like to blog when feeling down.

When I used to keep a diary... it's the same. I used to write only when I feel down. Thus the entries could have intervals of months, even a year... strange isn't it?

I guess for me, I tend to enjoy the happier times too much to tink of writing them down. and Maybe cuz I have a gd memory for good times? no need to record them down in my diary... but sad times, i tink i rem too... hmm...

So i tink prob cuz sad times r times tt i do a lot of thinking... so i tend to write down the thoughts that runs through my mind. and try to organise my thoughts... So writing them down helps.

I'm glad tt i write down things cuz I can now flip through the old diary and reminisce about the old times when I was young and definitely more naive... Where troubles were often in the cateogry of BGR. those days of simplicity...

now days are filled with work stress and other worries... sigh...

Someone, help me snap out of this can?

low mood

i noticed that my mood has been rather low recently... ever since monday...but more apparently since yesterday... not sure why...

i read from lilian too's book tt lunar 7th month is not so gd for goaties... *dun tink i am consciously affected by this* but i tink the energies are affecting me... and not juz me. Some of the goaties around me also feeling the effect, although they dun read lilian's book. So i guess thr's some truth to what she says. Anyway got to be careful not to forget things...cuz this mth prone to that. and hv to take care of health, have more rest cuz fall sick more easily also. Also very busy and shouldn't take on more work than already doing. haha... maintain low profile is good for this month. next month is btr mth to chiong at work! =þ

well...anyway...really feel low. juz low.. no apparent reason. And today, in the middle of the day, felt like getting a hug... Sweet Nic Lao Po came down to the lab during my tea-break (cuz having course) to give me a hug hug... so nice hor! Sharon lao po sang a song for me over msn... haha... silent song.. So well... at least got this 2 lao po to pamper me. future lao gong also tried la, but TOO far. haha...

Hope mood will improve over the next week or so... dun like feeling down. and i tink i not v gd company these low days...

Still having problems at work, i'm not sure if i antagonise someone at work today. i hope not cuz my life would be difficult... sigh... I am juz a small fry... why am I so xiang bu kai? =(

Wish that I will recover from the low-ness soon... I wanna be happi!!!!

Updates on Wedding Preps...

On a happier note, I have gotten down to trying to plan a bit more for the wedding.. haha...

Researched on the web for pictures of the cake, the ring pillow and stationary... I guess IF i wanna make it real simple, I could juz let my friends decide what they wanna do la :P I have delegated a few of those tasks to frens who are helping me. but i prefer to have a more coordinated theme to everything.... Well, I guess it's JUZ me.. :þ

Now I think I have a better idea of what kind of theme I wanna have and I have to embark on the journey to search for the things I need...haha... hopefully not costing too much! haha...

Wonder how long it takes to ship something from US... a few weeks rite? Is there enuff time to order and make something still...I wonder and have to find out SOON...

Wif work so bz, Dewei tells me not to do TOO much and stress myself out...haha... I guess well I'll try.. although I always wanted to make a personalised gift as my wedding favour...so i'll try my bestest... =)

opps...nothing much else... till next time. =þ

Work and Work...

Work's getting me down again. How did I know?

I took 2 days of leave mid week last week cuz it was long overdue. A self imposed exile as Sharon aptly put it. I just wanted to be alone! No access to internet, work issues, family or anyone... Just me and myself. I actually dun mind work issues, cuz my co-worker did sms me regarding something at work and I helped to sort things out during my 2 day break. I mean she's new and of cuz I will help her. And it's not her who's pissing me off at work anyway... OH and when I look at my calendar, I dun see the possibility of a break anytime till end of the year again! scary, isn't it?

Ok, back to the break... I felt so good, juz taking the time to nua and nua in the chalet at Sentosa... so contented to juz lie there...watch tv...read a book...do a puzzle... Did go for a walk in the evening since there was no sun during the day and no point going to the beach in bikini... NOT tt i wanna be tanned anyway! haha... Was going to pile on tons of spf50 sunblock IF i was gg into the sun! haha...

The effect of the break was even more apparent when I got back to work on Friday! :( Work was piling up...and i had trainings and meetings to attend... hmm...one thing about my work...many things are ad-hoc...so when people ask me wat i hv to do, it doesn't seem much. BUT many small things add on to a lot of time! and to do my work, i always hv to make lotsa phonecalls, ppl come to me for information...ppl chase me for information, sometimes that's beyond my control!

By the end of the day, I was exhausted yet work remains unfinished.. :( but i couldn't even think anymore. left office reluctantly at 6plus cuz i had to catch a movie at 9.30pm at vivo (courtesy of Ivy! Thank heavens for such wonderful colleagues!) and it takes time to get thr and get dinner. Movie was great but rite after it's done, mine went back to work and what I hvn't finished.

There was 1 issue which bothered me alot. something that's very small but affects many of the other departments for some contract matters. This issue has been pending for at least 1 mth, if not 2...and it's not up to me to decide the outcome. It's regarding the appointment of people for some positions... it's the job of HoP, what can an AO do, except to remind the person in charge. As far as I know, I still have not gotten the answer yet, in spite of dozens of verbal reminders and even 1 email reminder. :( and it's affecting my work cuz ppl keep chasing me for it. And i'm sure everyone has tt problem. subconsciously, u hv a to-do list in your mind tat you constantly update and cuz this issue is still pending, u juz can't strike it off and it takes up alot of memory space... sickening. :(

And i am getting sick of having to remind the person.. I mean...if everyone i work with, need SO many reminders, can I just make that my jobscope? I really have tons of other things tt i am accountable for...and having to issue reminders at such frequency makes it very hard to focus on other work too. and it frustrates me... creating negative feelings which affects emotions at work.. and in turn health after a period of time..i tink and it has happened to people I know...work stress gets to people! :(

As i often said...I dun mind alot of work, in fact I love making myself useful...really working 6 days straight is not a problem to me at all...as long as it's meaningful work. things that make a difference to the department or organisation. I would be glad to, really. But when it comes to things I find are meaningless and redundant... I would prefer to have my rest please... like sitting in a classroom where you are on standby for things you have no control over AND/OR things that you can't help much with...i guess i'll pass..

Updates?

I dunno wat to update....

things been ard the same...

Frens ask me the same question when they see me... How's wedding preps...? And my answer is always... I'm not dong much! haha... So wat's thr to update? =þ

I guess for me, the big things r settled, except the housing issue... tt's y i am really not worried... abt the housing, it's really not up to me... It's up to HDB how I shld get my 1st flat...haha...

I guess i have been preparing here and there... like getting frens to agree to being my sabo-party on the wedding day...getting help on angpow box, ring pillow etc. deciding on my wedding colour scheme...although i do have more to do of cuz...

I have a to-do list for both me and Dewei...so...i guess no worries ba... JUST that time does seems to be running out... August oredi... around 4 months more only.. hehe...

So i guess got to buck up! amidst work issues...

so i guess tt's all for updates since work is still the same..

till the next time my fingers get hardworking...