Happiness is...

Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect.

It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

~ Anonymous

something to do with age?

not sure if i shld be surprised or?

cuz i actually feel quite okay with the news so far...maybe it has something to with age...and life experiences within the past year or so...

Thanks to those who are concerned though.. I thank my lucky stars for caring friends!

A big news?

just heard a "big" news where the effect will set in a few days later.

someone told me it's normal to feel sad and the effect usually sets in a few days later...and that i am normal...cuz he goes thru the same...

is that really true?

most ppl tink it's strange tt i feel sad when my ex bfs get attached after breaking up with me...i mean..if u break up, it means u do not like the person anymore rite and that feelings shld be gone...

well...for me, feelings linger..i break up cuz i dun see how the rs will be able to continue and not tt i hv totally no feelings. i mean in every rs, thr r gd memories and bad ones... esp when u break up and the bad feelings are gone, the good ones remain...and tt's prob the part that i will let go when i understand the person is going to be attached...i have gone thru enuff rs to understand wat happens...i take it as they come...

the person told me..it happens to everyone... just that some ppl prefers not to tok abt it..maybe even not to feel it... i wonder if it's true.. maybe not all people...cuz some ppl cut feelings off very cleanly and clearly... in a way, it's a preference not to feel..

i tink i am a sentimental person...and possibly whoever ends up with me have to accept this about me... many ppl occupy a certain space in my heart after i have been involved with them and their life...i know it's getting crowded....hahaha... but tt's how i am... but of cuz the person i wld be wif occupies the biggest part la...

1) thanks to the messenger of the 'big news'...i guess it's in a way being sensitive...

2) thanks to the person who spoke to me despite being half asleep and letting me feel normal...

let's see how this would work out...

An add-on to my Bday happiness post!

I was ungrateful!

I am so sorry to this person who actually bought me the 1st bday present of the year for me! It came on 30th April.

This is happiness 0 - Thank you for the nice dress. (half paid by me no doubt but I wouldn't have gotten it if i'm paying full price. hee)

Thank you again!

真的 ~ 孙燕姿

Sharing a song that did not catch my eye when it was 1st introduced. Recently, chanced upon it and started to really like it. maybe it has smtg to do with life experiences and age...

It's a good song to guide love. simple rhythm, sincere lyrics. nothing spectacular and catchy but worth pondering over and over again. =)

makes me feel this is what love should be...simple joy that is enduring. something that goes deep into the heart and no matter what happens, you know that the other person will always be there for you.

no matter if there are obstacles that you encounter or he encounters, you know you have a constant in life that you can count on when you get tired of the 'fighting' at work, hustle of life, crazy fun with friends, squabbles with family, that person will always be there for you.

And that you will be able to work through things by talking about it, maybe not at the moment the disagreement occurs, maybe sometime a month after or even a year later or maybe even never, you know you can agree to disagree on such issues too. that person is still there with you.

you know this person wants to share your life with you and to share his life with you, walking right beside you throughout the journey. that is probably what love is and should be.

the commitment to be there, no matter what.

歌名:真的
附註:
語言:國語, 曲長:4m8s
作曲:孫燕姿, 編曲:包小松
監製:包小柏, 填詞:徐世珍

就這樣　愛了　天多高　風不曉得
我們走著走著　哭著笑著　那麼認真
誰都忘了去追問明天快不快樂

以為愛　夠了　想不到　路好曲折
我們對了錯了　要了給了　卻都忘了
始終捨不得放開手心裡的溫熱

真的好愛你　我真的願意　不管要去哪裡
狂風和暴雨　有什麼委屈　我有你
真的不容易　才走到這裡　連淚水都珍惜
錯過全世界　有什麼可惜　我已經　有你

牽著手　天亮了　才發現　雲好清澈
我們好的壞的　苦的甜的　總會值得
只要此時此刻　緊緊握著　

因為會心疼　所以愛是真的

Nice Quotes...

Wanted to find a quote on patience...but found these other ones instead...

“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.” ~ Anonymous

“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.” ~ Anonymous

Ghost-busting Weekend!

Caught a good movie TWICE tis weekend...the same one...

i know that sounds strange...but i actually enjoyed both times. cuz it's really such a good movie!

ghost of girlfriends past...other than providing entertainment and making you laugh lots... this show offers a great deal..

1) good looking people are always good to watch -
Matthew McConaughey: good looks (although someone pointed out the laugh lines at the eye area) and great body (which i only noticed the 2nd time round!) haha...
Jennifer Garner: (usually i like the way people smile) strangely for this lady, i actually din like the way she smile, i mean she looks stunning when she does... but i prefer the way she looked when she doesn't. the bits where she look serious, like the part where she was sitting on the swing near the end of the show - she looked so real...i like that.

2) parts about family love/ kinship love.
believing in the best of your family no matter how they behave. that part about the bro's sharing made me tear the first time. not the 2nd but still touches my heart. u can choose ur frens, spouse but family - they are the ones who will stick by you, LIKE IT OR NOT, from the time you are borned till the last day of ur life... but believing in spite of everything - this is SO difficult...at least for me..

3) parts about love (yes..this is after all a romantic comedy)
- the one who care less will have more control, but the one who cares more gets the happiness... i tink i felt that before... and i related this to an earlier entry - speech by Adrian Lim, to love is to give without expecting anything in return because in loving another, u oredi got the reward. And i oso wrote b4 that to love is to lose control, u r unable to hv full ctrl of a rs and a person because tt's just not the way things r.
- when u love a person, it's possible to get hurt, so deeply you dun wanna ever feel the pain again, never again. but if u get so scared of this pain that u r afraid to even try to love anymore, instead u run away...u r going to live with regrets. cuz u will never be wif the person u really truly wanna be wif. instead, u choose someone u won't feel that pain wif...or maybe like the male lead, u choose not to go deep at all...just touch and go...leave traces, never prints...

i teared both times i watched the movie. the part whr the male lead is convincing the bride for the wedding. it's just so true tt people get so scared nowadays and wan ctrl in everything they do.

4) smtg else tt others might not even tink of...but i tink too much for my own sake...
people tend to block memories/emotions tt they find too painful, that they would like to avoid. i have been toying wif the idea of going for a hypnotherapy recently...even b4 the show. i wanna know more about my childhood...cuz i dun rem much...and i find it strange. is it juz a case of fuzzy memory or smtg i am blocking?

i really wanna figure myself out thoroughly before i ruin another person's life.... =(

1st MC of the year..

i was looking thru my leave records and realised this is the 1st MC i am getting this year. I used to get sick every 2 months so i guess the Vit C and ginseng I am taking really helps.

this time, a combination of hectic May, June Heat has caused me to succumb to the virus! i believe will get well soon. just need more rest...but in this heat, can be so difficult to rest properly ya? :(

in office i feel cold! at home, too hot... wat a difficult girl! :S

anyhow..i am going to make full use of my medical leave and rest properly. tml is a big day. after that, can slow down for rest of june... wanna do a short break...dunno if possible..

have a Malacca trip later part of June liao..but just a weekend thingy, dunno if possible to extend it a few more days, subject to frens going with me i guess.. haha.. will explore!

seems to have caught Sharon's bug of wanting to travel TOO much... but hers more atas, she always check air ticket...i just go malaysia...haha..

oh yes, saw in papers that next yr, almost all public holidays are long weekends! more holidays to come! esp the CNY hols - take 3 days and rest whole week liao! can go for a longer hols, but at that time, only Aussie and NZ will be warm...other places still winter... and cheena places all CNY, will be boring also...haha... with so many hols in sight...it's time to save up ya?

Reminded...

That we will have another party SOON!! in july - no need to wait till august..haha...

30 liao...have to take care of skin...lesser late nites, lesser alcohol is the way to go la... =þ

The life of a 30year old...

My siters keep saying...i 3 pieces no more change liao...30....but actually have ma... when u give 4 pieces, then got change lor..hee..big change somemore....hahaha..

life as a 30 year old... must admit that really getting old and have to reduce late late nites!! have to take care of health and skin etc...although my mum gave me good genes...i still cannot take for granted la!

i got that hint from my bosses (ex and current) and friends who bought me make-up..haha.. i was joking with them! that they all tink now that i am 30, i need more make-up to cover up..so all buy make up for me... so tragic rite? =þ

anyway..juz to update..the AA party was nice, of cuz..as i mentioned...party wif my AA girls (and associate men members) are always fun fun fun! ;)

now is June liao...back to working hard mode but no mood...so can be v stressed, plus had so much fun in May that I had not have enough rest for a few weeks...thankfully today i came home early to rest and busk in the 'bliss' of my noisy and quarrelsome family...haha... actually i sometimes tink...in future, wld i find my own home too quiet...?? hahha..

but of cuz...i can always come home to my noisy family whenever i wan to...so my own home will be my quiet retreat after a busy day of work...where i can do watever i wan..and enjoy peace and quiet..haha...

my dream home - a cute toy poodle wagging its tail at the door when i come home...follow me around when i get home and wan to play wif me...forgives me even when i say i too tired and can't play...but still eager to play wif me if i can get my strength back again after shower...haha...dreaming....but i really wanna have a little doggie...so i can experience the unconditional love that everyone toks about.... wonder if i have ever felt that before...? perhaps not...or maybe i just dun recognise it in the form it was presented...

And i was so surprised that it's JUNE liao!!! this year pass so fast again!!! argh~~~

in about 3 months' time, AA will go into action again.. haha..