My dream job!

Anyone can tell me wat job I would be gd in?

Cuz today, after so many people been asking me wat kind of job am i looking for...I paused and tink v deeply abt it....and i am not sure...

I've been applying for all kinds of jobs...i know whr my interest lies...and which industry i tink i like...been gg for jobs in the mktg field...or maybe banking...tried to get into call centre as executive...even tinking maybe can try out recruitment consultant... no replies yet though...

And i realised that I am not sure wat i really wanna do..and not sure wat I am gd at also! I mean...ppl told me wat they tot before...things like, it seems i enjoy coordinating things...like gatherings between frens kind of things...and organising things... I also find that I can remember faces and names quite well...And some people say i can be air stewardess/model/go into sales/events/tour guide....possiblities are endless ya?

So wat kind of job am i really suited for? Whether u know or not....wanna give me a clue...? some suggestions?

or maybe is there any website or anyone who helps people find where their talent or true interest lies?

Does the dream job only exist in the dreams....?

Life is like a broken pencil - pointless...

The quote is taken from Janice Wong's website...

I juz saw her latest blog entry...she seems in distress...a column by her was published in TNP today too...also showed that she's sad...The one in TNP says she had been waiting to get hitched...i tink she has NO problem in getting someone to date...but she might be too choosy...or been hurt too many times... sounds rather sad... And she's going to work at getting a life, even if she stays single...

I am feeling that life is pointless too...or rather more of work is pointless... life...not so pointless..but sort of lacks excitement recently...and i been weak weak lately...so dun even hv the energy to make my life more happening also... it's a vicious cycle ya... tinks life is boring, stays boring cuz tired/eeak/unwell/lethargic...life remains boring...

Life is indeed like a broken pencil....

Fate play a big part...

Recently got to know a fren of my beau better. He got to know her from online forums a few years ago...there is a group of them who are closer. Always meeting up for meals or karaoke sessions... A very fun group!

I forgot how I started to read her blog...I guess I was bored at work (like now...) and bf sent me the blog address and told me that the blog might keep me entertained for a while... Thereafter, i was constantly checking it, peeking into her life... She's very funny...writing style is easy reading...nothing abt the current news on TV or social issues... Juz things tt are happening in her life... And she wrote about them so hilariously! Using shortforms only she herself and her avid readers will understand...things like fbb...hff...and nbtt...haha... Shan't tell u here...in case she has copyrights over those shortforms! :þ

Slowly I got to know her better thru her blog...started to understand her, knew wat's happening in her life, better than my bf! haha...and she is HIS fren lor...

There was a period of time, though...tt I can’t stand her! Cuz she was constantly writing about who and who likes her… There was even one entry that she wrote to record who had liked her before…or rather who she tot had liked her before…! I couldn’t imagine wat kind of a girl wld do such things…seems like she is so full of herself…and tinks tt everyone around her likes her! :þ However I was still hooked...haha… The few times I met her, did not really make me like her a lot…seems she’s a little aloof… I mean can see she’s ok person…and bf oso say she is nice person la….but I din feel much warmth…

Things changed when I myself started to tok to her…I am looking for a job and my bf told me tt her company is recruiting, so I decided to find out more abt the vacancy and about her company…She was very helpful, even though she was very busy! Almost drowning…since she took over the jobscope of a colleague who was transferred to another dept…she was practically the only person in her dept! Anywayz…I started toking to her via msn.. In the beginning, conversation was strictly about the job vacancy and the company… cuz I wasn’t sure if I am qualified for it…or if I stand much chance even if I sent in my resume… haha… Slowly, the conversation branched out… we started toking abt everything under the sun…cuz I know stuff abt her thru her blog….I can relate easily to her…and I am always updated of her most recent happenings… haha… things between her and her butt is one of the topics in our chat sessions and I was constantly nudging her to go for it…or giving her other encouragements/advices… Haha…

I found a fren in her…*bf was even sort of jealous when I toked to her one nite till 2am, and din get to tok to him tt nite!* She’s very interesting to tok to…speaks in a funny way…as in…make ppl laff kind…wif her own creative shorforms… Oso very helpful and very caring towards frens… Not only is she a nice fren…I feel she’s going to be a fine colleague! She’s so hardworking…and responsible…and she seems unselfish in her knowledge…Cuz if I were to enter her company, I was going to learn from her… I will definitely benefit greatly from her guidance….But still not sure if there’s such a chance… Even if I dun get the job, I’m still grateful that I found a fren instead! Jobs can wait… :þ

About the impression of her thinking that everyone likes her...i guess it's not surprising even if everyone does! She's such a nice lady...she ought to be attached lor. but no...she's still single... can't understand y...tink her stds r too high! haha... I tink in those blogs tt i mentioned before, she didn't mean to say tt many ppl liked her before...it's more of a personal record of such people...since she din let many ppl know of her blog...Maybe i shld hv one too! haha...to record the no. of guys who liked me before...i tink i used to write them down in my diary... haha...How egoistic! :þ

Juz wanna say tt fate does play a big part in pulling me and her closer...even though I had a bad impression of her for a while...and we met a few times...

But I tink this is a fren worth keeping for a lifetime... :)

Oh...and it's her bday this Friday! Here's wishing her happy birthday...maybe she reads my blog too... ;)

Blame it on the pills...

It was the antibiotics that got me depressed...!

I knew there was something wrong last wk, i didn't know wat was wrong...i was feeling so down somehow...i hadn't felt so down in a long time...normally i bounce back more easily...if ever i feel sad or unhappy or angry... *i get knocked down and i get up again...nothing's ever gonna get me down - taken fr a retro song...and this sounds more like me...more hyper, last wk, i was juz half dead*

But last week, i cldn't...

a fren told me tt antibiotics make me feel down...is tt true? I thought it might be, cuz i was sick the previous week...in bed for 2 full days...juz slp and slp... then finished my course of antibiotics last wed.... felt down and weak for entire wk, till tue/wed.... adsolutely no mood for anything... not anything i normally enjoy, like salsa... and particularly sian abt work...

If antibiotics make ppl feel down...how come we r still given this stuff? I was always given antibiotics..haha...but i nvr finished the whole course, after someone told me tt i will get more dependent on them if i take more of those pills... However this time, i was real sick, nvr had fever for so long, and temp was up and down for 2 full days, though i took fever medicine... was worried, so finished the whole course...and kena the depression! haha...

Anywayz...the sky's clear again! still looking for job but not as pessimistic... :)

I can survive...i survived 3 yrs wif my current boss...who disliked me in the beginning, always give me a hard time...sometimes shout at me...doesn't understand wat others say most of the time and ignores these ppl...tink i shld be able to take hardship anywhr else oso...

any job lobang...tell me ya! :)

Ultimate Confusion...

I am going mad...tt's an understatement...i'm going more than mad...worse than mad...

I dunno wat to do wif myself...

Y is it that suddenly...without any warning at all...i lose sight of everything... seems nothing i do interests me... everything seems pointless...

work is pointless...has always been...but i try to add meaning....sometimes my own meaning... i lost tt ability these few days...

i hv lost sight of wat i wan to achieve in my work....or has thr been any?

my job is easy...v little brain needed...and not much to do, or maybe i am efficient... and it pays well... wat more can a person ask for?

BUT it has become so routine...so mundane...i need challenges...yet i am hesitant...i do not hv confidence in handling another job... i hv been made braindead by this job... a machine tt takes instructions... 20 yrs of education wasted...

I tell people that i wld like to go into something in the service industry... does tt require a degree? most of the time, no... :( then i hv wasted all my time spent paper chasing...

i like retail...like the way u only get to interact wif a customer for a short time, but need to make an impression and satisfy the customer in tt same short time. But to become a salesgirl, i tink my family wld tink i am mad.

i tink hotel line is interesting...but heard of all the bitching...and another thing, everyone who gets into this industry works fr the bottom... thus degree or not, makes no difference again... :( another stupid decision....

someone asked me to go be a model...i tink the person see me too up! i am not tall/skinny/pretty enuff...

wat can i do?

another thing...the unsatisfaction with work has spilled over to personal life...or other areas of my life... i am generally unhappy...moody...reflected in my msn nick and all over my face... no mood...no energy....can't do anything else...

this might oso be due to general fatigue...cause: hectic social life to make up for boring working life... and recent ill health...which might be a cause or an effect of all the above...

so wat shld i do?

options
- stay and rot in current job. wait for them to find out how idle i am and fire me...
- look for a more challenging job and find tt i am not up to it...and regret leaving current cushy job...resign and come back begging...
- exhaust my brain by tinking so much and end up at woodbridge...

so wat am i going to do?