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Wednesday, March 24, 2010

I'm gonna miss many things!

Reality is starting to set in...even before it becomes reality.... haha..

really can't bear to leave the school i helped build...last night i was travelling alone back home...and it suddenly hit me... sudden sadness in solitary moments...

i have spent much of my time in the past 4 years, helping to build this...and many people referred to me as a pioneer of the school... i always say i try my best, whether or not it is really much. But i know i helped to build the school, definitely. and it's something that I really have problems leaving, that's y this decision took so long, amidst of course lotsa obstacles along the way. and this is also why the decision is so difficult.

besides the school... there are the people...

1 has already cried after knowing this (one of the few who knows at the moment)...i am touched..really...i din tink i wld make such an impact...not when i joined on 26th March 2006. =) Is this similar to the thing they say...about dying...if you live a meaningful life, when you die, you smile while the rest cry.... =þ Chey Chey!! of cuz i am not dying yet!

Yes, the people I have worked closely with for the past 4 yrs...some were tormented by me...some tormented me.... but we all buried any past grudges and worked together towards the common goal...

There are people who supported me during my low times.... laughed with me during the high times... celebrated my successes with me...laughed at me during my failures... haha... well... of cuz i dun expect to get along with everyone and there's always the 20-80 rule. I believe at least 80% of the people i work wif, wld be happy working wif me....that is quite enough...

Anyway....it's really strange that I am going thru this and presenting my thank-you-speech now... but these r the tots....i guess it's cuz i am starting to let go from the point i got his blessings... no, he's not my dad... my dad doesn't know yet.... =þ

Sunday, March 21, 2010

decision made, time for next step

to start toking to people who wld be upset wif my decision, esp the 2 men at the top...

i have stopped caring abt the work oredi...for a while i tink...

you know, when you sense that the person you reporting to does not care....somehow it affects...at least for me...

and the only obstacle tt lies ahead is my conversation wif the 2. and wat worries me more.

and thr are also the $$ issues....fixed expenses of $1.5k per mth with no income sounds scary. :( unfortunately this is going to happen...this gives me the urgency to find a new job after a break ba.

these r some of my worries for now... at the moment...

altho most ppl are happy for me RE my decision. and i do thank them for their encouragement and sharing of thoughts. and they did share alot wif me. abt how things wld not be as bad once u take the step forward and that maybe once my mind is clearer, things wld be even better for me...

i feel alittle insecure...abt whether i wld be able to get a job after this......hahaha.....is that strange?