tis the season to be busy...

2 months to Xmas!

Season for gift hunting again...

it's actually quite a difficult task to get gifts, especially for colleagues...close in proximity but sometimes we dun really know their likes and dislikes...i mean superficially yes. So getting a gift they would like is not always possible. i guess all of us have experienced this before - getting a gift you dun particularly like..you dunno where to keep it cuz you know you won't be using it... but cuz you appreciate the thought greatly, you are still thankful for it...dilemma...

someone told me in his workplace, they decided to just stop buying gifts for each other. they would only do a gift exchange for the department, where each buys a present for just 1 person. this sounds like a good idea i guess.

i tink i tend to buy for too many people in the past...make myself too busy. then dunno if last yr i bought and if i dun this year, wld people be offended. and in a way, for me, buying a gift for ppl during Xmas is my way of thanking them for their help over the past year and look forward to working together again next year. And cuz i work with many people in the company and routinely need favours from many people...haha...i tend to buy many gifts...small ones but still many la...

resources-wise, can be a concern too...Xmas shopping plus year-end shopping for CNY can eat alot into the 13th month bonus. haha..well..let's see how i can optimise it this year!

Another thing...Year end also means D & D! Time to shop for a nice outfit and put aside money to doll up!

And when I think back, I have been involved in some way or another in previous DnDs ever since I joined the company...and this is the 1st time I am going as an attendee! Amazing? Is that super ON or wat?

2006 - Newbie performance
2007 - RC Organising Committee
2008 - Singing Competition
2009 - Attendee! hee..

change of pathway?

i had my appraisal today. it was good, considering I had only half my heart at work for a while, due to other things happening in my life and me shifting my focus to family and friends, trying to work some balance into my life...

the past year had been tough...both at work and at home. i'm glad i survived..and somewhat stronger than before...

what i wanted to say today is...not really the above...

i just had this tot -
though my appraisal is quite okay and i know my services are still valued in the organisation...somehow i feel my calling is somewhere else...

though i tink i do quite well in administration and can even say i quite natural can handle details and am quite meticulous...somehow i feel unsatisfied with the current portfolio i'm holding...

is it the people i am coming into contact with, the information i see everyday that is influencing me in the path i might choose?

smtg not many people know...

i like children...not in the way other people like children...the in-the-face kind...mine is really quite subtle...i like watching them, observing them..

in a way, i tink i am not a natural with kids, i dun really play v well with them, is too concerned about discipline most of the time... =(

but i wan to go into early childhood education... is this strange? oso, i heard the money is not tt good...

and i hv also been interested in areas such as special needs/learning disabilities... and would like to go into those areas...

i'm afraid though...
1) fear of failure..tt i would realise it's not my cuppa after all
2) lack of patience with these kids... i know i would need tons of these
3) fear of the unknown... has always been the kind who stick with usual, norms...

will i find the courage to step into the unknown?

time to gather information...

another thing - i would really miss current workplace, the people i work with and also the school i helped to build...and possibly a stable job where progression is rather possible...