Blessed Girl!

somehow this year, i feel blessed...

some people say 30 feels sad, before they cross the big 3, they get depressed...but somehow..i din feel that way! i feel v v happy...

i feel wiser, appreciates people around me more,

crisis makes or breaks people..i's a firm believer...

i had a crisis last year...a bad one which made me question many aspect of my life, my views of life, how i behave, treat people i care about, whether i show my appreciation towards people that cares deeply for me. it took a crisis for me to start tinking and getting back to myself again. this is me, the real me...

i feel deeply, care deeply, get hurt deeply but gets back stronger. i dun wan to be like someone who numbs parts of me when encountered with hurt, sad, disappointment...i will feel them and move them.. this is real...this is maturity.

i'm glad i learn this now. and have more time to practice what i learn.. might not always be able to do it but trying to do it all the time and able to do it most of the time is good enough..

wanna share my happiness in this entry...

i'm happy..

happiness 1 - that colleagues remember my bday... had a mini celebration on wed! gotten flowers from my wives! gotten a bag i've been looking for from them too! and cake and many turned up to sing the song for me...so blessed! Appreciate my lovely colleagues who planned the celebration inspite of the fact it is peak period now! love ya all! =)

happiness 2 - still about work, i tink my bosses make me feel like i'm part of the family! i got a msg from my boss wishing me me happy birthday when i applied for leave. he actually delivered my bday voucher to my desk on wed! And my big big boss sent me an email to wish me happy birthday! I really feel so touched, so appreciated...now i know why i work so hard for the company... this is the reason!

happiness 3 - a kind soul celebrated my bday for me on wed nite. sent me a nice gift, brought me to a nice dinner and we had some fun dancing after. he booked the date so early and even applied for leave before i did. i actually wondered if it's his bday instead..haha...Appreciate very much the effort and thoughts!

happiness 4 - another kind soul delivered presents to me this morning, complete with breakfast and an offer to send me to work...cuz he dinno i was on leave. Appreciate the thoughtfulness and also the presents. They'll definitely come in useful when my work stress sets in again tomorrow..! Argh~~~

happiness 5 - had a nice bday lunch treat from my dearest best fren! i tink many are envious of her cuz she got to meet me for a meal on the exact day! hee... dun envy la...cuz she oso free ma... happy to spend some time wif her, catching up and toking abt raising kids...cuz she's gg to be a mummy soon! i asked to be the godmother but i tink she haven't agree...haha...

happiness 6 - reserved my bday dinner to be spent at home, wif my family! something i haven't done for a long long time! it's smtg i really wanted to do. i invited my family members, saying it's my 三十岁大寿!! hee..it's nothing v fancy, juz dinner. i asked my mum to prepare more food, so it's like a party. partly oso cuz the kids juz finished exams so can be like a celebration for them oso. was a happy time. although i look like ghost cuz no make up, took many pics wif them. i will put up some here too. i esp like the ones i took wif my dad and mum separately. i'm beginning to appreciate my family more, i tink some things come wif age...seeing the kids happy makes me happy too! ;)

happiness 7 - receiving alot of smses wishing me happy birthday! shows i'm in the tots of many frens...i only managed to reply after dinner juz now cuz had been bz... but i replied everyone of them cuz i really wanna show my appreciation.

happiness 8 - having many frens who wanna meet me to celebrate, some even postpone to after bday and to june cuz work been bz, and oso i incorporated some time in may to pamper myself, rest and relax...din wan my May to be so full of gatherings and no time for myself. i am establishing a balance in life.

happiness 9 - the finale - partying wif my AA wives on sat and of cuz wif associate members too! as always, clubbing wif them will definitely be fun and enjoyable!

hope u can feel how blessed i feel... wanna share my happiness so as to double, triple, quadriple it and spread to people who read my blog!

here's some pics of the happiness mentioned above -

祝我生日快乐！

Rawa Island 14-17 May

i juz came back from a wonderful trip! post 1 pic here...i'm a very 1 pic shows my trip person, those who read will know by now.. =) here's the one for this trip..


haha..i like the jumpshot..funny...


besides laughing at the jumping girls...u shld also check out the sea!!! so pretty rite?


was a fruitful trip where i did snorkelling and saw interesting things lor... saw sea urchins..nice colourful corals...stingrays! swordfishes! and baby sharks!!! but all i tot of when i saw them was...wah...bbq stingray! wah...swordfish sashimi! ;þ heee...so greedy!

3 more days???

very fast leh....3 more days to big 3 day! oh my!

got the notification to re-register for NRIC..strange that even though it is mandatory, i need to pay $10? haha...and need to go down to their office to collect...

and can only apply to re-register after the exact day i tink...so ma fan leh....

System over heating.....

My Only Choice?

some tots that I have been meaning to write down since 7plus but no chance to come online..

someone u cannot live without = only choice, not just 1st choice...

1st choices can be replaced...but only choices cannot be replaced...

some stuff i learnt from 一切完美II

and oso..the mother spoke great wisdom too..

感情是拿来经营的，不是拿来考验的 - love is to be nurtured and not to be tested (was the subtitles) hee..

worth pondering...

2 more weeks! ;) haha...

Strangely I am looking forward to this year's bday! Although it's the big 3!

There is nothing to be afriad of.

I lived and I loved.

I have no regrets for all I have done and things that have happened to me!

For those mistakes I have made - I have apologised and tried to make amends.

For all the good I have done - I hope to have made a difference.

For all the lessons I have learnt - I am speechlessly grateful! Especially for the past year or so. Rollercoaster rides are horrifying and grilling but you get the great satisifaction after you survived it!

For all the great friends who stick with me, I thank you all.. and LOVE LOVE LOVE you all!

I feel I have finally grown up. Late? never too late....

I want to appreciate everything...feel everything in totality - whether it is sorrow or happiness!

That is because this is the real me. I am me! And it has never been more real than this!

Scary high~~~~~~~

The Swamp Thing....

Have been totally swamped with work recently..and I can't say it's cuz i was inefficient cuz i was totally efficent la! I am busy from the moment i sit in my chair when I reach office, till the time I go for lunch (usually without filling my mug, so no water whole morning)...

Then busy again, from time I get back to office after lunch till knock off...

And my mind would feel numbed..cramped...from all the thinking and weighing of decisions..

Management position isn't ez for me.. :S some are born leaders, born to delegate, born to make decisions... and some just have to try harder... but we all make it! I am sure! =)

anyway..to those I have been neglecting on msn...I really am swamped la...chat again when things are better... and i hope soon...though the light has not appeared and i am still in a dark tunnel..

tml's department lunch day! nice..and I'm going for a movie after work! icing to the yummy yummy cake..! haha...

This is a good break.. life shouldn't be all work and no play! life is about having happy times more than sad times... life is tough enough w/o others making it worse ya?

And people should not be taken for granted... chances were given... lotsa effort were made... and warnings were not heeded... now....leave it to heavens ba...

*i digress...*

coherency is not exactly a characteristic of a tired mind....hahaha...