Giving thanks!

I am a lucky girl! =) even a stranger is nice enough to write encouraging words for me!

I have been reading alot and learning alot. Been feeling more positive.

Have had a very good chat wif him last weekend. I think it was good for him too. It was good because it was constructive. Not because it was helping to mend the relationship. I still tink it's beyond repair.

It seemed he is beginning to understand wat is going on...and wat has been wrong...which is a very good and encouraging development...this is what i have been hoping for. even tho the rs doesn't work out, at least we dun leave wif a scar, we leave wif increased understanding tt benefits our lives in future... SO idealistic...even at this age...will i ever not be this way? haha...

ok...we had a long long talk, like 3 hours at least... during the time, i was oso discovering new things and having tots...

1 of them...not the only one of cuz... juz tt i was tinking...this is 1 signficant one... -
this whole discussion was preceded by a series of events... me gg for smtg he has been asking me to. he perceived this as very giving of me (altho my only intention was tt this is the appropriate action to take at tt time, no intention of giving or making him tink i am giving.) and thus shared wif me some tots he had recently and how he really appreciated the thing i did...which i responded positively and oso suggested that it has been stresseful for both, so tot maybe gg out for some activities would put us in a happier mood to tok. which did some wonders. i realised something thru this... and told him... tt he doesn't put himself out to love someone, instead he wld sit back and wait for someone to reach out a hand before he wld contribute... something for his tots...

anyway...it's late.. shld slp...still got to work tml...

anyway assured him tt deadline is still yr end...and my mind is made up...and i still think i am doing the rite thing of not saying i quit and that's it.

i shld start healing myself of my past experiences...altho fr a book i read..it's natural tt women need support in a wave cycle...and tt if men can effectively support women during those times, offering care and concern and listening attentively...it does wonders for the women..altho NOT gg to permanently heal the women..the negative emotions will keep coming up till the women is finally assured...these negative emotions can be fr childhood, parents, past relationships...etc..