Retreat Mood...

i am SO gg to die...no mood for work and it's piling up...

hopes of gg away fades so got to slog on...i am sure i need a break. maybe after 15 aug. and maybe not 1 wk but 2 or 3 days...

nothing much else to write...

except someone's still not convincing enuff...

a fren told me tt giving such short tests aren't gg to help the rs...i'm not really giving tests.... but i wonder...if a person has more time to prep for smtg and yet can screw up..how to ensure tt the person can do it when u spend more time wif him? might even vomit blood...and then lungs, liver, kidney...etc...

then suggested giving 2 or 3 mths of seeing more of each other on a daily basis..i dun tink so.. need the motivation first...now nothing...

see how ba... someone doesn't seem particularly bothered or keen to do anything anyway... when i get fed up again. i will juz do wat i shld hv done like a mth ago.

periods of 'silence' really doesn't do me any gd AT ALL. i realise. doesn't let me cool down...it juz serves to sweep things under carpet. and i juz suppress the issue.