My life in general...now...

OK, i am currently in between jobs. On leave but starting my new job next monday! Looking forward to it cuz it's definitely going to be very different from the old one! Different jobscope, different colleagues...and different environment...

From the few times i was there, i sense that the environment is very frenly and supportive, which is something I really liked about the new place! The person who interviewed me, basically juz chatted with me and gave me an assignment to do...haha...sounds really like class, ain't it? :þ Anywayz, I tink they liked me quite a bit and asked me for a second interview, this time with the provast, who leads the academic wing of the institution. Quite big shot, huh! It was early in the morning and I guess i din do very well for that one, though the dean, my future direct boss, like me quite a bit....my feeling la! haha...and also, I found out tt i scored quite well for my assignment! :þ

Rite...more about the new job, y i feel the environment is rather nice... they were serious about their work, i am sure... but i like it that they also had fun while doing work, which is rather nice. maybe what i saw doesn't happen most of the time....maybe...the people seems frenly enuff too. While I was waiting for my turn for the interview, someone came up to me and chatted abit, i dun know who that person is still! :þ he juz asked me wat i was thr for and thr were more smiles at the plc, most ppl who walked pass me had smiles....i tink... and in a way, i felt that the plc seemed more like a plc i can work in...with real people...rather than ppl who will tell me that WE HAVE TO GO BY THE BOOK....etc...i dunno...tt's how i kinda feel with the current plc. less flexible.. the new plc seems more like alive and more personal...

my main worry...is that i can't cope with the new jobscope, which still remains as a mystery to me. It's a new job created since i am going to support a new school started recently... and with the workload unknown, i dun even know wat to expect... really need to walk one step, look one step... :( which is something i dun usually like... i like to be prepared, esp with regards to work matters and serious matters. personal life, spontaneous is good. Other things, i normally appreciate some time to prepare myself mentally and plan... BUT anyhow...i believe i definitely can do it, even if i am slow in picking up...which i sometimes am! :( And also as the provast said, I wasn't even trained in estate mgmt but i still managed to do my work in the old job, it's more of a trained mind which is important...not really the discipline that you were educated in...

Besides worrying about this new job...i probably am not thinking much about other things... haha... that's y when a close fren asked me recently if i was troubled...i was stunned.. Am I? i din tink so...and somehow i felt she meant rs-wise...which is gg OK...i mean it's stable..nothing's wrong...no arguments...at least not v often. we have our own space, can manage not meeting each other very often...he can do his own things, i do mine... thr is understanding... i tink it's all good... SO i told her no...nothing's wrong...and she went asking another fren! haha...i thank heavens for a fren who cares for me so much! really! seriously! I mean i appreciate that! :) And she is now convinced that nothing is wrong... haha... :)

anywayz... abt my rs, i guess i am juz being more laidback about it now...i know i had been more excited about it... somehow i dunno y...but i had tot of marriage, wedding more during the 1st year that me and my bf are together... it's funny rite? i mean most ppl wld probably use tt time to know more abt each other and maybe assess suitability and stuff... Well, the difference probably is that we know each other well before we got together, so that part of getting to know and stuff can skip... Other things we discovered along the way weren't enuff to trip us off-course also...so i sort of kept thinking of getting married... Wat was i tinking anyway! haha... maybe it was the fact tt news of zillions weddings were around me...and like so many ppl r walking down tt aisle...i keep wanting the same too. And since young, i always tot it's nice to be married and living with the person you love. And more recently, it's cuz i will have my own plc finally! haha....

BUT...maybe i have sort of woken from slumber... dating isn't all that bad, is it? haha.. i mean being in a rs is ok...marriage prob can wait... now i am not so keen to get married anymore... partly cuz i suddenly realise that i wld hv to do lotsa household chores! haha...now i'm doing none, except cleaning for my hamsters, which i gladly undertake.. the tot of having to clean up a whole flat is daunting! haha...so i guess marriage can wait...

And also i am quite happy with the way my rs is at the moment too... getting married might mean different expectations... and i might not have as much time for myself... furthermore with the new job coming up, i am afraid that it would take up a lot of time...the time left might not be enuff to maintain a rs, let alone a marriage, which i felt demands more attention...

Perhaps my focus is shifting...temporary or permanent...not sure...maybe after i settle into the new job, i would feel more ready for the next challenge of getting married...who knows...

Somehow...'who knows' has become my fav word for the day....and hopefully i am able to meet with confidence, any new challenges that comes my way at work and in personal life!

YES!!! And wishing for more rest before starting the new job....but this is the last wk! sob sob...

Gonna slp now...it's late........