not everything can be compared...

during the day, thr was a conversation whr someone said i cldn't hv felt much sorrow before, considering how i behave and my personality... it stemmed from an entry i wrote last wk abt being overpowered by my emotions...

din really wanna argue wif her...even though i felt wei qu.. and i wasn't prepared to share my experiences anyway...so no point to juz say that i had been really miserable before. so juz left it. but i knew i had to blog... though ppl involved, pls dun see too much into this blog. this is more of an outlet for me to express my feelings and thoughts..

i know i had been v hurt before. i admit tt it might not be the worst experience but definitely not smtg tt everyone cld survived from. it took me quite a long period of time. and help fr many frens. i was down for a mth...everyday only waking up to work. when i get home, it's straight back to room. except to eat. but some might say 1 mth is not a long time. i guess i juz am not the kind who stays down. juz not my character. but even though i went out more...i was emotionally scarred. this hurt took longer to recover fr.

i believe that everything tt happens, happens for a reason. must learn fr them, good or bad experiences. tt's prob y i cld hv recovered. and wif the help of close frens of cuz. but it's really mostly cuz i wanted to help myself gt out of the darkness i was in at tt time.

i have frens who fall and stay down... preferring to stay tt way. i cannot understand y...and much as i wanna help them...i can't when they dun help themselves... in the end i can only give up and i dun even feel sorry for them because they landed themselves in tt shit. i got out of tt before. i know.

i'm not trying to mean i am v li hai. juz tt i tink even if smtg is difficult, as long as u put enuff effort..it will somehow work out. u wll emerge as a stronger person as well. instead of always hiding in the darkness. in self-pity.

and anyway, i really prefer to be the cheerful person tt i am. it's not tt i hv not been down, but i try to pick myself up quickly.. can't stay down too long...

so everyone...gotta stay cheerful and optimistic ok? ;)